I'm really trying to refrain from the epic introspective (BS) posts. Also refraining from mundane shit. Actually, i'm preparing for delta server delta format. Keepin' it real, an' shit.
A complete anxiety meltdown today. I parked the rig because I couldn't see straight, couldn't breathe, and was fully going to pieces for no apparent reason (this was really painful to me). There was frantic calling of friends that I don't think would participate in a conspiracy against me. Erich thinks that I'm in need of a drink (after 22 days sober? this is a record, indeed), and that things have been going far too well for me lately (or, better than I've become accustomed to). Thus, my unconscious things are the real conspirators. He also believes that people have better things to do. This all seems quite reasonable to me. ( i have a controlable desire to diagram sentences--should've done this post in latin just for fun--maybe next time)
I know that it's completely fuckeed (tm), really. That doesn't stop it, though.
(insert three hours here)
A trip to the store of liquor (the bra-less wonder), and i'm much more relaxeed (tm). Dr. Vodka, Lift Your Skinny Fists (beautiful record) on repeat, some comfort food, and a quick chat with meine Donnerbrüder (et allia), and I'm back in one piece for the time being. Thank you to my best townie friends (and dr. e-dogg) on this one. I owe y'all one, really really.
Still, I think that I need to pay a visit to a shrink (
EEEK). There should be an anti-anxiety inhaler (or weed, as Erich suggests) or something else that's new and cool and instant.
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