the pharmies, and how i do not like them

I'm feeling. Being zoned out because of the pharmaceuticals was really lame. I'm totally working without a net at this point, since my risky behavior with the mood stabilizers worked out.

I was totally nervous for a while, but the supposed seizures never materialized. it really feels like I'm free, or something.

the blood pressure drug didn't seem to do anything, so I stoppeeed it. I have a good time series, too. if I do a regression BEFORE the drug and one AFTER the drug, it appears that, statistically, I'm better off without it. I tried to explain this to my doctor, but he's apparently a fucking moron. thus, I refuse to take this drug.

I'm not so sure on the cholesterol drug, though. (if only I could time-series that!!) I have a hypothesis about that one. basically, I just need to eat more reasonably and drink less booze (so my liver doesn't go berserk again).

those readers with some sort of medical background ought to comment on this post. maybe I'm totally being a stoner about my meds.

so...it comes down to this: I feel better without the psychiatric shit--hell, I FEEL; and, if my heart explodes, oh well.

I wouldn't worry so much if I didn't have a family history of the heart/brain attacks.