tonight was amazingly crappy.



broken truck. bad sound. fucking guitars. headlining after a national act. to top it off, i lost my goddamn keys and had to break into my house.



i could just about hang myself. recently, i decided that i was going to do it that way. it's relatively clean. i'll just get a diaper. i suppose that i could just take some pills, but that's such a teenage girl method. guns are far too messy. maybe pose it as a weird auto erotic asphyxiation deal with some transexual porn and tape loops.



erich is going to tell our parents that i'm a fag. that should result in a phone call.



i need a woman's touch. today, j actually startled me quite a bit during an IM. i've been chatting a little bit with L from chicago via email. she seems like a nice girl. why don't any of these chicks listen to good music? grumble.



good night.