so i'm really down. i think that this could be for a few different reasons:



1) the weather has been crummy. maybe seasonal affective disorder. i think that it's been a problem since i was little, and started acting like a fool in the fall. it might also have something to do with autumn, and smells and the associated memory triggers.



2) i'm coming down, so to speak from playing two shows. it's like bertrand says. i'm fine with excitement until i'm deprived of it. maybe that's why i'm so burnt after shows. it's seriously like coming down from cocaine.



3) i think that i'm worrying too much about money. i always do that.



4) i think that i'm worrying too much about being alone. but, oddly, i push people away. i think that i'm just looking for something to bitch about.



5) maybe i'm an alcoholic. this always happens after a good weekend binge.