one thing that's good about the winter is that you can set beer in the back yard to cool off.



it was fucking snowing in boulder when i left work. i was disgusted with the weather. almost as disgusted as i am with my attitude. i was thinking about my new seasonal affective theory. i think that it has more to do with olfactory stuff than the lack of light. it would be a fun experiment to do. unfortunately, you can't really experiment on people like you could in the good old days. it would have been fun to be a psychologist back in the day, when you could design experiments that would surely give someone ptsd. i think that this memory thing might really have something to do with things. i wonder if something happened to me in the fall. i can't think of anything off the top of my head. shit. erich was born. that's huge. unfortunately, he had to be born in october. i'll bet that there's something there. maybe that's why i start freaking at the begining of fall. hmmmm. i don't recall being terribly thrilled about getting a little brother. i wasn't opposed to the idea--just indifferent. actually, i don't even remember my parents ever telling me that i was going to have a little brother/sister. i remember being surprised by the whole situation. all of a sudden, i had this alledged brother, who i couldn't even see because he was incubated. i remember that he was disgusting. that's also about the time that i started fucking stuffed animals, wearing makeup, and dresses and crap. i wonder if i was acting out, looking for attention. hmmmm. interesting stuff.



i'm glad that i have erich, though. he's pretty entertaining, and has proved useful many times.

i can't believe that i'm here shrinking myself. maybe i need to stay medicated until, say, december.