man, i feel like a woman.



not really.



i'm really still haven't really made up my mind on what to think of shania twain. she certainly is nice to look at. the sound is so slick. oddly, it's produced by a rock producer. i suppose that nashville isn't the only place that makes slick sounding pop records. i think that it's all about the major labels. they can make anything sound totally homogenized.



i do like the big fiddle section, though. i don't think that i've ever noticed how panned things were in the stereo field, especially the guitars. maybe that's the secret to huge sound. put the drums in a reasonable stereo, bass in the middle, pedal steel slightly off center left, leads slightly off center right, fiddles spread (lots of reverb), and pan the rythym guitars hard left and right. They like to pan the pedal steel across. that's kind of spooky lots of reverb.



we need a pedal steel player. maybe someone to play theremin, glockenspiel, pedal steel. that would be a fun job. maybe a super cute teenage girl. we could dress her up all slutty. we've got andrew "babe magnate" warner, so we need to compliment that.



supposedly, that girl, W, is into andrew. i don't know. i wish that i could have a reasonable conversation with her. more than getting to know you chit chat. i wish that i knew what the deal was. my rabbi seemed to think that i hit it off with her. mary always gives me a hard time, because i was dumb enough to tell her about my crush. i suck. she does seem like she's a super cool chick. probably too cool for me.



jesus. in 48 hours i'm going to have to be a rock star. as much as i like performance, this is really freaking me out. i think that it's 'first show jitters.' everyone else seems confident. i'm not. i have to put on a good show, though. fighting this is not a good idea. i think that i'm going to have to have a stiff drink beforehand. maybe something else stiff--ross would oblige (goddam faggot) me. i'm kidding. i know that you're reading this, buddy. andrew states is a fuck. even more than the egghead.



this really is a slick record. i'd really like to see shania naked (musically speaking) with a 3-4 piece band. would the material hold up? i think that the song writing would. much like ross' tunes. great song writing is what determines whether you can pull shit off regardless of instrumentation.



great song writing is very formulaic, though, which is funny. i suppose that it really only applies to "songs," as opposed to instrumental stuff, although a lot of good instrumental stuff can be done with 4-5 parts. Example: the ventures. shit, a lot of surf music.



we need an accordian player.



my good friend jim beam just started to really impact me with his conversation. we've been talking all night, but i just noticed.



i need to burn this for ross. it has the same slickness of graceland. i think us geurrilla recorders can get a lot of ideas listening to crap like king crimson, pink floyd, beetles, and a lot of pop music.



that's what shania twain, and most all of the bullshit that comes out of nashville is.



we should configure our image to be outlaw country. or not. i like the blue collar image that we're projecting. i really don't want to have to project an iimage. red cloud is regular music, played by regular guys, for regular people. i suppose that we could wear derbies. or capes. that would go with the flyers.



holy shit. i'm drunk.



i wonder what the schedule is on friday. i need to time my inebriation. and, i want to get a few games of martian attack (or whatever it is) beforehand. i'm stoked that we have that game a stones throw from the stage. ross will be surprised (maybe not, now that i've spilled the shit).



he says that he's going to play me. he can play with my nuts. jeeze. did i say that out loud? ha...



maybe i am a fag. actually, i had a HUGE conversation at work about that very subject today. i was talking to janette (who's totally cool and a lesbian--a far cry from those death threat dikes from a couple of years ago). i asked her, very matter of factly, when she "knew." she was a little surprised, because that's the sor tof thing that she said that "we girls" talk about. i actually have a great interest in the nature/nurture thing. Janette is interesting because her sister, amber is also gay, completely independently from janette. niether of them knew that the other was gay. that's weird. she says that she knew at about age eight. (that's a funny looking word) she found out that amber was gay after finding her in bed with a woman when amber was thirteen. how weird would that be?? their mother blamed janette for amber's queerness.



why do i find gay women attractive? i'm a moron, that's why. maybe because we have something in common, we like women. i don't know. i've been thinking about that. it's not the "hot lesbian action" that does it for me. i think that it's a common interest.