i am still agonizing about ms. o. what to do, what to do?



i'll bet that i did/said something, so now she's going to disappear. that's a painful, painful, painful thought.



i think that everyone i know is mad at me. i wish that i knew why.



i must've done something. maybe i've been an ass lately. i don't know.



decided against the denver trek. too tired to walk around. of course, eating would help, but i'm too upset to eat. i hate my life. what i NEED to do is find a miracle drug that'll keep me awake, kill pain, make me happy. wait. cocaine does that....oh well.



i think that i'll cut up samples that i've already acquired since i've got 3.5 GB of wavs to deal with. i'm so lazy. it's not like i'll ever get to use them. maybe for that experimental project that i've always wanted to do. it's too bad that no one would get it.